Prisms

A few weeks ago, I jumped out on a low hanging limb and did something I had never done before.... during a one minute video, I admitted I wasn't completely in control.
I submitted the confession for an opportunity to participate in a six-week long challenge through Greatist.com called Greatist You!
If selected, I would get the chance to be coached for 6 weeks by someone who could help me reach my goals.
What exactly are my goals?
That's a good question. When I recorded, I thought my goals were to lose weight and become more active again in the gym. I thought I'd allowed myself to be so consumed by the JOB, that I forgot to find joy in the escape of the gym. What I've realized in the last two weeks is that I may be mistaken... I may have been looking at myself through the lens of doubt and disappointment instead one of accomplishment, opportunity and hope....
I spent the last several days with my youngest son Sam, as he prepared to go back to school. We hammered through loads of laundry, sorted through last years "stuff" and had some pretty awesome conversations about the coming year. His focus is not on WHAT he wants to do as much as WHO he wants to be.... successful, helpful, loving and free to be with the people he cares about. The eventual JOB will have to allow him to feel these things, or he'll find one that does. I realized during those conversations that he views me as successful. No matter which job I was doing,  I was always able to BE who I wanted to be....
I was notified on Saturday that I didn't get chosen to participate in Season 1 of Greatist You!
Initially I was disappointed, but after reviewing my video and my goals and thinking through conversations with Sam, I realized this was just an opportunity to perfect my goals...to shape them into something that would enhance not only how I looked and felt, but WHO I wanted to be at this stage in my life.
The new video would say things like, I want to be STRONG and HEALTHY. I want to feel CONFIDENT. I want to be someone who stomps out my own self-doubt and achieves something SPECTACULAR and HELPFUL.
I have enlisted a coach to help me reach my goals and I'll be sharing everyday for the next 6 weeks, here and on my Face Book page
I'll include my journals, recipes and workouts. I'll ask my coach to post my progress and once we get a week or two down the road, I'll toss in some photos too. I'll share my frustrations and accomplishments and maybe an opinion or two that you won't find anywhere else ;)
I invite you to join me... cheer if you want or call me out! I always work best in a group!